it's too late.

Imagine it's too late.

You time is limited, your breaths are numbers, your luck has run out. Time has somehow passed by and you're at the end of this lifetime.

It's a powerless and real thought. Just pause for a moment to put this in perspective. Think about how infuriated you feel when your boss makes a decision for you, when you get lost, or you have to wait on something for an hour or two.

Then multiply that feeling by an gazillion. That's how you might feel when you're lying on your death bed wishing you didn't lead a sucky and uneventful life.

So don't worry about waiting for life to find you. Go find it. Live it and love those around you.

Don't wait until that last moment, when it might be too late.

Porcupines, Elephants, and Ants

Porcupines are hurtful little beings. Their translucent quills are made to pierce the skin. From a far they appear to be harmless, yet damage can only be unleashed from a close proximity.

Elephants are truly loud and obnoxious beings. Somehow they prance through circles annoying most but leaving the surrounding crowd smiling at their larger than life personality.

Ants are thoughtful, cunning, and efficient. In groups they move molehills or mountains little by little. They are often undervalued and overlooked. Their impact is reviewed and continually judged, deemed unworthy of attention or gratitude.

Midnight (w)onderings

I wonder where this life will take me.

I wonder who will walk alongside me.

I wonder when I will realize my true purpose.

I wish I would only realize that sometimes we aren't meant to know. To rest assure, be cocksure, and pretend to understand and nod along.

It takes a certain type of inner calm to understand why the future holds secrets. Some believe that this knowledge is a heightened stage or enlightenment or utter insanity.

I wonder what the future will hold.

30 in 30 Challenge

Well I am getting / have gotten old.

I'm heading into my 30th year, and it's time for a post surgery fitness challenge.

Here is the deal:

30 minutes of hardcore cardio (sweaty endeavors)
for
30 days in a row
starting
Jan 21st
ending
Feb 20

The end point of the challenge is the best way to start my 30th year - on a beach with somebody special.

Here is to (elderly) health.

The best thing that I've seen/heard in a while

Sometimes you just need to marvel at skill and groove to amazing music.

Beauty - By RICHARD FEYNMAN

Sometimes it's simply self-realization that contributes to the largest moments in life. but often we simply forget to make the time to reflect.

I encourage you to read the text below while watching this stunning video
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cRmbwczTC6E

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I have a friend who is an artist, and has sometimes taken a view which I don't agree with very well.


He'll hold up a flower and say "Look how beautiful it is" and I'll agree. And he says you see as an artist I can see how beautiful this is, but you as a scientist take this all apart and it becomes a dull thing. And I think that he's kind of  nutty.


First of all, the beauty that he sees is available to other people and to me too, I believe, although I may not be quite as refined aesthetically as he is; but I can appreciate the beauty of a flower. At the same time, I see much more about the flower than he sees. I could imagine the cells in there,the complicated actions inside, which also have a beauty.


I mean, it's not just beauty at this dimension of one centimeter, there's also beauty at smaller dimensions. The inner structure, also the processes, the fact that the colors and the flower are evolved in order to attract insects to pollinate it is interesting. It means that insects can see the color. It adds a question: does this aesthetic sense also exist in the lower forms that... why is it aesthetic... all kinds of interesting questions which with science, knowledge, only adds to the excitement,and mystery, and the awe of a flower. It only adds. I don't understand how it subtracts.


If you expected science to give all the answers to the wonderful questions about what we are, where we are going, what the meaning of the universe is, and so on, then I think you could easily become disillusioned and look for some mystic answer to these problems. How a scientist can take a mystic answer, I don't know, the whole spirit is to understand... Well, never mind that, I mean I don't understand that.


But anyhow, if you think of it, the way I think of what we're doing is that we are exploring, we're trying to find out as much as we can about the world.


People say to me "Are you looking for the ultimate laws of physics?" No I'm not, I'm just looking to find out more about the world, and if it turns out there is a simple ultimate law that explains everything, so be it. That would be very nice to discover. If it turns out it's like an onion with millions of layers, and we're just sick and tired of looking at the layers, then that's the way it is. But whatever way it comes out, nature is there and she's going to come out the way she is.


Therefore, when we go to investigate it, we shouldn't pre-decide what it is we're trying to do except to find out more about it.


You see, one thing is: I can live with doubt and uncertainty and not knowing. I think it's much more interesting to live not knowing than to have answers which might be wrong. I have approximate answers, and possible beliefs, and different degrees of certainty about different things, but I'm not absolutely sure of anything, and there are many things I don't know anything about. But I don't have to know an answer. I don't feel frightened by not knowing things; by being lost in the mysterious universe without having any purpose, which is the way it really is as far as I can tell possible. It doesn't frighten me.


And so altogether I can't believe the special stories that have been made up about our relationship to the universe at large because they seem to be too simple, too connected...too local, too provincial. The earth, he came to the earth!


One of the aspects of god came to the Earth, mind you. And look at what's out there, it isn't in proportion.


Anyway, it's no use arguing, I can't argue it. I'm just trying to tell you: with the scientific view, my father's view, that we should look to see what's true and what may not be true; once you start doubting, which to me is a very fundamental part of my soul, is to doubt, and to ask; when you doubt and ask, it gets a little harder to believe.


Beauty
RICHARD FEYNMAN

So that happened

Call it a tipping point, or an 'aha' moment, or just that time where you mutter "ohhh ... that's how it's supposed to be."

Well something hit me.

I woke up this morning with an obscure memory lingering in my mind. I was a child, dressed in a faded 3/4 t-shirt sporting my mopish auburn hair, proudly whipping through a dense forest at top speed. The wilderness blazing by, my arms flailing, and feeling that my lips were forming the purest smile.

Living in the moment - and loving it.

So what the hell happened to me? When did I start limping through days that most people envy. Internalizing complaints about things that I wouldn't feel comfortable to mention in public, because I'd surely appear as a spoiled schmuck.

I may have forgotten how to enjoy some small moments, and I may have missed a few years of those self-initiated "how do you feel you are doing in your life" reflection sessions.

So guess what... that's not going to happen anymore. You shouldn't let that happen either.

The truth is that we can all be fucking awesome people when we want to be.